The Elusive Yes

by Ryan Hobler

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Waking up without the slightest recollection Of who or where I am, yes, yesterday's a section That is closed to me, it's not something that I can see Standing on the shoulder of a desert highway Tossed aside and left to die, perhaps it's Judgement Day and I've been left behind As if God had a change of mind Yeah I got a ways to go Yeah I got a ways to go But I'm going somewhere Yeah I'm headed somewhere So maybe there's a reason why I'm out here walking But neither foot's revealing why I'm alone and talking to myself Cuz there sure ain't nobody else But, certainly, I'm headed in the right direction The road is cold below my toes and at the intersection there's a sign to read In a chicken-scratch I don't speak Yeah I got a ways to go Yeah I got a ways to go But I'm going somewhere Yeah I'm headed somewhere No there's no sign of life, not anyone along this road No there's no sign of life at all Only the air seems to hear anything that I say But it keeps every word and must hide them away In a place that only the sky would be able to find The fading red horizon says the night is falling While the road that stretches forward says "Tomorrow's calling For the same 'ole bit," but I'm so tired that I have to sit And suddenly a skeleton is there beside me Is this a dream?!? What does this mean?? And who the hell is he to point the other way?!!? As if he knew the way I came Yeah I got a ways to go, Yeah I got a ways to go But I'm going somewhere, yeah I'm headed somewhere www.ryanhobler.com
2.
"See What You're Doing To Me" Open like a book with black and white honesty Hands out in front with nothing hid up the sleeves How easy it is, to love and to give Closing both eyes while turning the other cheek And I see what you're doing to me my love And I see what you're doing to me my love Starkly exposed but not going to run away Calm and resigned with feet planted firm in place So eager to please, I fall to my knees A grass-line surprise and the huntress is on her prey And I see what you're doing to me my love And I see what you're doing to me my love, my love, my love, my love Oh I'd give everything to you my love 'Til I'm pale as a ghost and blood doesn't flow in my veins And I see what you're doing to me my love And I see what you're doing to me my love And I see what you're doing to me my love And I see what you're doing to me my love
3.
All Along 03:11
I dreamed I saw my grandfather Up in heaven and he looked peaceful He looked young again And he smiled at me when I took his hand So I told him how I missed him so And how it made me sad that I never got to know Him very well When he was with us every single day And then he laughed and said to me: But I've been with you all along All along All along, all along Then he pointed down To where I came from to the world below He said that's where I belong But I begged to stay I did not want to go away So I told him how I've been so down And how I can't quite turn my life around Oh how I felt alone And I needed him, yes I needed him So he hugged me close and said: But I'll be with you all along, All along All along, all along And when I woke up my face was wet From the tears I cried all through my dream last night But I felt okay And I hoped to dream again someday Words and Music by Ryan Hobler
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They got us cornered Jack, where we gonna go? They got bulls eyes on our backs, oh man now I can say, "I told you so" We best stay where we are, you know they won't think twice We took this one too far and they're through with us and through with playin' nice Now I feel it in my heart, I feel it in my bones And I guess it could be worse, I could be stuck here all alone and shot! You know I should have known, you're never satisfied You could be sitting on a throne and you would find some way to feel denied Oh you said, "Come on Bob, man up and let's get rich" But there's always one last job and you don't ever fold or call it quits Now I feel it in my heart, I feel it in my bones And a minute more with you and I'd be glad to be alone and shot! But lately I can't even recognize my face I used to love the prize, now I love the chase Just one last cigarette and then we'll take our bow No, I haven't tried one yet but there ain't no better time to start then now Come on, shut yer big 'ole trap, we can't just chat all day I got you covered Jack, let's find out what these bastards have to say Oh, I feel it in my heart, I feel it in my soul And the world will have to learn this is the only way we roll
5.
Don't need no roof above No shelter from the storm When I bear the elements Somehow I'm safe and warm And the coldest wind and rain no longer do me harm 'Cause I have love I have love I have love I have you Don't need no dollar bill No golden hope or fear To riches or to rags I'll never shed a tear 'Cause I got a currency that's tried and true and dear I have love I have love I have love I have you There is no way I can repay all that you've given me But I will my heart, my life, the air I breathe Don't need no afterlife No gated kingdom come It's here now with my wife Our heaven just begun And there is no end to any moment that is won When you have love And you have love You have love You have me
6.
Oh I remember the day that we last spoke You didn't owe me a thing but you gave me hope I always thought we'd have time to make amends I never meant to lose touch with you my friend You talked of stories and songs that we once shared You missed the food on our block and the Grand Street Fair Then you confessed you moved home 'cause you knew you were sick You said the struggle was Hell but you would not quit And you said, "Don't worry things will be alright Don't worry things will be alright" You said whenever the pain would slam you down You'd become like a tree with your roots in the ground And though you hardly could move you could rest and grow And you could sway with however the wind would blow And then you'd say, "Don't worry things will be alright Don't worry things will be alright Don't worry things will be alright Don't worry things will be alright" And despite all outward evidence You were tirelessly confident That no matter how your day began And no matter how your day would end Tomorrow it would all make sense Yeah tomorrow it would all make sense And tomorrow would be damn well worth the fight Oh I remember the day that we last spoke You didn't owe me a thing but you gave me hope You know I never made time to make amends I never said goodbye to you my friend
7.
I Fell Deep 04:20
Awake without a remedy, delirious with energy A bouncing human trampoline, I'm climbing up the air Lost within your rhapsody, a restless, reaching melody Enchanting magic unforeseen, I'm swirling everywhere Oh I'm still replaying the moment we kissed And I'm rearranging the way I exist Oh I fell deep I'm circling the memory, around and 'round exhaustively A hazy Saturn parody, whose rings I won't bemoan My heart, a former tragedy, now aches with possibility A wishful-thinking time machine, its fate is yours alone I'm still replaying the moment we kissed And I'm rearranging the way I exist Oh I fell deep Now I'm in deep... Trouble don't come burst my bubble, I don't want this bliss to end Improvise or re-baptize me, keep this trip on the descent Cuz I'm still replaying the moment we kissed And I'm rearranging the way I exist Oh I fell deep Oh I fell deep Oh, it can't be just reverie, it must be for real So come to me now and I'll say how I feel! I'm floating on air and high on a prayer that maybe you've fallen like me Oh I fell deep Oh I fell deep I fell deep I fell deep
8.
I remember when she came along and found me lying on the floor all drunk in town I had propped myself against a wall and gave up after all the time spent falling down No I couldn't even stand 'Til she gave me a hand When she came along, when she came along, when she came along She helped me get back on my feet, called a cab and stayed with me a little while And when that driver didn't show she figured she could drive me home 'cause "What's a mile?" And it came as a surprise How this opened up my eyes When she came along, when she came along, when she came along Oh I changed my ways Oh my saving grace No if she had not come 'long I would never write one song I'm glad she came along, so glad she came along, I'm glad she came along I'm glad she came along I'm glad she came along I'm glad she came along I'm glad she came along Yes I'm glad she came along
9.
Near You 04:00
Hey now I can see what's going on in your mind I am reading Your thoughts and they are saying you are down, you are down So I'm near you I'm near you When you need me I am near you Hey now I don't always know what the right words are But you're weary And you don't always know what you want to hear So I'm near you I'm near you When you need me I am here for you And, oh, I'm never far away Oh, I'm never far at all And, oh, I'm never far away And, oh, I always hear you call (When you call me) Hey now I will sing a song and I will hold you tight Oh my darling! I will hold you all throughout the night, tonight Cuz I'm near you I'm near you When you need me I am here for you I am here for you I am here for you
10.
I'm a boulder Tumbling downhill Picking up speed Aiming to kill you At the bottom… You're a patched-up, stained glass house I've broken before And now I'll break you once more, Oh Lord I will not stop, no, no You're so pretty Alone in the sun Fragile colors So easily undone Do you ever wonder Why I keep rolling down? You pray as you should But now you must be no good, you're no good When you see me then you scream: "Please, oh please, please stop" "Please, oh please, please, please stop" "Please, oh please..." But it's useless I don't give a shit I'm a boulder This is what it is And you know you’re done for So you bring your own roof down On top of yourself And now you're shattered to Hell, oh well I'll just roll right through your wreck
11.
She puts on her face as she cries Same as yesterday, she does not believe he lies Shading over blacks, reds, and blues Wearing tear-drop tracks, she can't ever bear to lose She's holding on all with all her might He stares at his hands in the bar Tries to understand why things are the way they are All his promises in his glass He knows what he is so he never takes a pass He's holding on with all his might Things won't be alright, alright? She waits up all night worrying Sees the morning light but she does not expect a thing He is fast asleep at their door Fingers around his key He could only find the floor They're holding on all with all their might Love can't win this fight, alright?
12.
A frantic scramble, the curtain’s raised A hasty start for a one-man-play The spotlight burning up the stage And you can fake love and you can give your word But it won’t be enough, even though everyone heard An improvisation with no clear plan But the act wore thin on his audience The fourth wall never had a chance And you can fake love and you can give your word But it won’t be enough, even though everyone heard And you can fake love and you can give your word But it won’t be enough, you’ll be the only one hurt And somehow she always knew but she saw only what she wanted to Until a voice inside her head said, “I would rather end this now than feel so dead… ‘Cause I’m not dead… No, I’m not dead… No, I’m not dead!” And down came the theater with such a fall Down came everything and nothing at all Down came the fourth wall And you can fake love and you can give your word But it won’t be enough, even though everyone heard And you can fake love and you can give your word But it won’t be enough, even though everyone heard You’ll be the only one hurt

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Words and Music by Ryan Hobler
Executive Produced by Ryan Hobler
Produced by Andy Baldwin
Mixed by Andy Baldwin at Rola Pola, Brooklyn, NY
Mastered by Fred Kevorkian
Recorded by Ryan Hobler at HSH, Peter Karl at Peter Karl Studios, & Andy Baldwin at Rola Pola
Photography by Shervin Lainez, Patrick Eves, & Tyler Sparks

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released January 20, 2015

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Ryan Hobler New York, New York

Ryan Hobler is a singer-songwriter who plays simple, refreshing, and alive music in the folk-rock tradition of Paul Simon, Nick Drake, and Elliott Smith. His songs run the thematic gamut, ranging from love, defeat and resilience to stupidity, the absurd and mortality. Oh yeah and songs about cats and dogs. ... more

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